It made me realise I am worth something. We all are.

Ellie’s Story – in her own words……

Before joining the Team Programme I was stuck in a complete rut. I’d been in and out of hospital for years, having been diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (EUPD). I had no work, no education commitments and no self-confidence. I was also using substances very frequently and really struggling to manage my emotions. So I tended to keep myself away from stressful situations.
My mum saw a post about the Team Programme on Facebook and tagged me, thinking it would be something I’d be interested in. Ten minutes later I was on the phone to Groundwork signing up.

There were a few things I knew I wanted to improve, like having more confidence when meeting new people. I used to dream about what it might be like to have a job of any sort. I also wanted to be more tolerant and stop getting into confrontations with other people when I didn’t agree with them.

Difficult first days

The first day was really difficult. Despite being aged only 22, I was one of the oldest in the group and I felt a bit out of place. But once I started talking to other people, things began to get easier, though I still felt anxious. Despite this, I continued to go back for the rest of the week and gradually realised everyone was just as nervous as me.

By the end of the week I felt quite comfortable and supported, especially by the staff.

Work placement

The most challenging part of the programme for me, was the work placement. I’d never been in a work setting on my own without knowing anybody around me and for this reason, I felt extremely nervous.
However , I just kept thinking to myself that everyone at some point had been in my situation and it was normal to feel that way, and that the rest of my team were probably feeling exactly the same at that moment in their own placements.

I went in with my head held high (my heart skipping a beat) and a smile and it turned out to be just fine.

Next steps

During my 12 weeks I realised that I’d love to use my own experiences to help other vulnerable young adults.

Since finishing the programme, I’ve been looking into volunteering with Groundwork to help deliver the Prince’s Trust Team Programme, with the view to getting a job if something suitable became available. The Team Programme has given me a lot of faith in myself. It helped me realise that life actually isn’t just a constant battle and if you put your mind to it you can pretty much do anything.

It may take time and a lot more hard work but it’s definitely not impossible. It made me realise I am worth something. We all are!

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